Turn Right

Hi.........


Everything is turning into something I dont want it to.


This blog is going to be hard to write..... i'm already in tears thinking about it.

I love you, You know that. I just said I didn't love you..... that was a complete lie. The only reason I said that was because you stopped talking to be and you acting like you didn't want to be friends with me anymore. You know what........All I want in my life is for something good to happen.

For me to go back to school. I dont wanna be homeschooled anymore. I wanna go to private school. I want to wear a uniform.

I want a boyfriend that cares about me. A boy that doesn't want me for sex. A boy that wants to be with me for me. To hang out. Go to the mall. Hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright even if it's not.

I want friends.

I want a family that doesn't fight. Doesn't lie to eachother.

I've lied a lot in my life. I've lied to all my friends. I told someone that I didn't smoke even though I did. All I wanted to do after that was smoke a cig.

I want to move to Florida.

I want to not be afraid to act and sing in front of people.....

I want everything to be okay.

I know I'm never going to get any of this stuff.

My life is fucked up. My family is fucked up. My friends aren't really my friends.


This is what goes through my mind.

I want to go back to when I was little... I want to live at my old house. i want to do homework all the time. I want to hang out with friends until 10 at night. I want to have true friends. I want my old boyfriend back. I want to talk to my old boyfriend until 3 in the morning. i want to smile again. I want to laugh until i cry.

I'm never going to get any of this stuff and you know why......


because I'm not perfect. I'm not going to have the perfect life. Everyone is still going to lie to me and tell me everything is alright.

That's just fine. I got used to getting hurt..... At least I dont cut........yet.


Night everyone. I hope your life is a lot better then mine will ever be.


- Veronica Woodworth

OMFG!

I totally said I would update this weekend... well... it's a week later.



Here is what happened.

My laptop broke. I hung out with friends. Got sick. Listened to music and cried.

I saw Aliens in the attic yesterday. it was a amazing movie. (In my point)

I went with Katelyn, Kyle, DD.

I didn't wanna go but I did. All they ever do is make me feel like shit because I dont wanna sit online all day at the library. It's summer. I wanna go out and take pictures, go swimming, Sleep. Thats my whole summer

I'm going on a day trip next week with my mommy and dad. On sunday i'm going to the movies with my mommy and dad. It's going to be fun

I dont know what to type. I am just going to go write my new series for YouTube. Bye!


- Veronica Woodworth <3=

Updates tomorrow

Sorry I haven't updated in a while.


I am going to update all weekend with info of my life... like anyone cares


"Run away. Run away. ILL ATTACK!"

But Everywhere I Go I'm Reminded Of What Going On.

Why Does This Always Happen To Me?!

I'm Always Ditched

I'm Always Hurt

I'm Always Heart Broken.

I'm Always The One Who Is Dumb To Believe In You


Mike might not be able to go to Summerfest because of his parents. Ugh!


I'm actually crying right now.

Leave me alone okay?!

- Veronica'

Mood - Heartbroken, Hurt, Crying, Depressed

Song of the Day - (You Didn't Have To) Walk Away - Mitchel Musso

I wouldn't be nothing if I didn't have you.

Okay so the title is a lie.

I wish I wasn't single.

The only reason I wish I wasn't single was because I wanna be able to say "I love you" and then hug them. I wanna love somoene more then ever before. I wanna be able to take FaceBook pictures with them. and Hang out all the time. And stay up all night on the phone. I wanna be in love. <3

But that's never gonna happen. Almost every guy i know has a girlfriend..

I've had a boyfriend before. It didn't last long. He was a bitch. I hate him. I want to have someone who loves me for me. Not someone who is dating just to date. I wanna be able to call him up when I need to talk to him. and Stay on the phone for 5 hours talking about nothing. I wanna be able to go to concerts with him. I wanna be able to go out and have a good time.

Looks like me dream isn't gonna happen.

No one knows this but I wanna be an Actress and Singer on Disney Channel when I get older. I wanna do what I love. But the only bad thing Is my voice sucks. I can't act for my life infront of people. (I can act just in front of people) I've had auditions before... I just didn't tell anyone. Not even my parents. I had a chance of a lifetime and I ditched it and sat in my room and cried.

My friendship with my bestfriend Mike is amazing,

It's kinda like Lilly and Oliver or Miley and Oliver (Hannah Montana)

I'm gonna go now. I love you all.


- Veronica Woodworth